azhar and azhar

c.wrzuta.pl/wa6759/75a1ce2c0017a42c4ad20ded/0/datsik%20-%20vanish.mp3

had to do this to download, so hard this song

i could use an indefinite time out till the mind's settled and wiser. my actions dont mean anything anymore.

so many plans for the immediate future but the niggling annoyance of not knowing my enlistment date is holding everything back. cue my current activities - tv slack tv slack tv slack, not waiting for anything, cant wait for everything. its the holidays with half of them spent on sleeping, i'm so free i dont feel the urgency to get my hands checked. left hand with the pulley torn, right hand with the mysterious suspected fracture, both 6 weeks due for a doctor.

so many stories to tell, i feel like i'm the latest edition of something or another.

not much concrete long term plans just yet, my ideas and plans arent always on the same page. an example? this diploma in mechanical engineering.

oh last one, marlboro singapore is becoming sissy lights nowadays, my lungs can now withstand a coal furnace with my zero regard for personal health.

tsk.

if you're going to die in 3 hours' time, go watch the 09 espys

i'm not easily satisfied but tonight, i am.

I'm not quite gregarious, but tonight i am.

I'm not really high, but i am.

It's good this xmas, i am beyond.

The myriad of feelings, i'm dumdfounded. Its a new drink, jd, chivas, belvedere, red bull, mint leaves, lime and crushed nuts, they call it a name. Aptly so.

Meh xams ev'one.

i broke something motherfucking expensive i dont even know what they're called. i'm feeling taylor swifty the very least. i'm so fucking scared right now. twas a trying night, why so sudden